The choices we make

Well, that vacation really did the trick! 

Had 10 days off and had a blast, for sure. The thing is that once you actually turn off your phone and turn yourself on again, you realize that it's far too easy to keep focus on everything else except what really matters in the end: Yourself.

I'm currently in a turbulent part of my life, and without getting into too much detail, I've found myself avoiding lots of things that I really need to deal with. In this fucked up industry and with my past as a weight on my shoulders, that answer has been drinking. I know I've written about my relations with alcohol before, and especially the relations between the correlations of the entertainer and the crowd. 

So as I've found that the answer isn't in the drugs, I've decided to make things a lot easier for me. 

I'm going sober.

Starting from now until new years eve, at least. If it feels good, then I'll keep going i guess.

If anything it will definitely help me to get in shape for the next Motherpearl album in January. And the thing about these decisions are that you can have all the stamina and will power in the world, but if you really want help, you have to reach out. So that's what this is. My way of asking you all to help me with this. Because it's so easy to slip. 

Now, I know that some of you may ask if I have a problem with alcohol. Well, let's just put it this way: I want to eliminate that possibility before that moment arrives. I've been both lucky and unfortunate enough to have first hand experience with people who had to go through that kind of substance abuse, and the mere thought of me inflicting that kind of pain and hurt to the ones closest to me would not only be devastating, it would probably break me. 

So here we go. No more excuses. No more easy way out. 

Call it a reboot if you will. I'm calling it just what it is.

A new start.

Be safe!

/M