The eternal sunshine of the creative mind.
"...a year ago I decided to turn my small business into a corporation, and become a CEO for real. The biggest problem with that was, of course, that when you've spent about ten years as the only employee, you get accustomed to being your own marketing department, your IT-department, accounting, PR, human resources person and, in my case: the product itself. "
Born a loser
"Despite what your parents might have told you over the years, there is one fact that you cannot escape: You are born to lose.
Everyone in this world is a loser in some way.
The thing about loss that really hits you, is that you're reminded of what you actually have. I, for instance, have lost a number of things over the past year. A partner, a dear friend, trust, self esteem, belief and some weight in the process."
What do you mean, "Spring"?
"Just before I kicked the first set into motion, I looked at the crowd and realized that I have been so preoccupied with everything else, that I'd forgotten the basics of a song, a voice and a guitar..."
The 2014 confession.
"Enough with the linguistic manners and the nice words. I feel like I spent the first 6 months of this year going from clarity to clarity, playing bigger venues, releasing a killer album with the band, only to be dragged down in hell for agreeing to it all. Talk about a backfire. "
Bryta mönster - STIM VS. Epidemic Sound
Jag tog mig till Stockholm för en dag på Münchenbryggeriet i STIM:s regi. STIM (för de som inte är insatta) står för Svenska Tonsättares Internationella Musikbyrå, och är "en upphovsrättslig intresseorganisation för musikskaparna och deras musikförlag".
Kort sagt så håller de koll på oss musikskapare och våra cash.
The choices we make
So as I've found that the answer isn't in the drugs, I've decided to make things a lot easier for me.
I'm going sober.
Starting from now until new years eve, at least. If it feels good, then I'll keep going i guess.
One more thing though..
"So I'm gonna go on vacation for a while.
Big whop, right? But It's kind of a big deal for me, in many ways. But the thing is, this vacation will be a bit different. I won't be posting pics from it, like so many others tend to do. Nope, this will be a secret vacation, that will be filmed and edited as kind of an independent movie, with as much raw, uncut and straight forward footage in it as possible. "
Summing up the summer.
"I achieved something this year, and sort of came into my own in the process. It feels right to move on to bigger things, and work harder now. Lord knows I've earned my spot among so many talented musicians and singers, but that's not to say that I have a bunch of people to thank, so here goes.."
Det brinner...
"Igår mötte jag en god vän vars karriär jag följt lite på avstånd genom åren. Givetvis med några samarbeten och interaktioner, men på det hela taget ett ganska normalt förhållande till en vän och kollega."